2015: The Year of Gain.

Happy New Year.

It's been a minute since I last blogged and I needed the reprieve. Truth be told, I'm not sure I am ready to return to the blog just yet but felt it was worth posting on this first day of 2015. I've thought a lot in the past week about the need? want? to post my 2014 year in review as I have in previous years but the desire to look back on the past year has left me with a sour taste. Since taking a hiatus from the blog a couple months ago, life has certainly been speeding along: moonlighting at the toy store, a conference in Orlando, Thanksgiving, holiday parties and outings in the city, a week in Texas bringing LeaderShape to St. Mary's, Christmas, and a few days in Pensacola on the beach. Sprinkled throughout were dates with new guys, family time, and the ongoing quest to find peace in my heart.

As I look ahead to 2015, I don't have any resolutions or goals (yet) to guide me in this next year. Yet the overarching theme for 2015 will hopefully be a year of gains. A gain in clarity professionally as I think about what my next step should and will be in my career. I'm ready. Gains personally as I develop new relationships, continue to widen and strengthen my communities here in NOLA, and seek to find a dating relationship that inspires and challenges me. A gain spiritually as I focus more on my relationship with God and look to become more comfortable in my worship community. But most importantly, my hope for 2015 is for a gain emotionally in finding peace, letting go of what I cannot control, and finding freedom from heartache and pain that colored and overshadowed most of 2014. For if 2015 is the year of gain, 2014 was the year of loss. The loss of my grandfather, the loss of control, and the loss of a rekindled, romantic relationship that rocked me to my core and still does in many ways.

I hope that 2015 has big things in store for me. How much of that will make it to the blog remains unknown as I continue to recalibrate but for now, I'm raising a glass to 2015 and looking forward with hope and excitement.

Cheers.