Doubt.
No, I'm not talking about the Academy Award nominee for Best Picture featuring a standout, all-star cast. I'm talking about the feelings that have resurrected lately as I sit through training session after training session wondering if I'm going to be able to handle this new position. And here's the thing: I KNOW I am. But I can't stop the doubt from rearing it's ugly head as I dump form on top of form, protocol on top of protocol, and "always remember" on top of every "always remember." It's beginning to be overwhelming.
I remember once hearing that the human brain can only recount things in a series of 7. So for example, if you ask someone to remember 7 words, numbers, letters, etc., they should be able to do it with no problem. But give them 8 and man, you're asking for it. T-R-O-U-B-L-E. At this point in time (not like I'm counting), I think I'm up to being asked to remember 127 things. I'm not kidding. So needless to say, it's adding up and it's A LOT! And I'm plagued by the desire to want to excel in this position and ensure I don't forget to cross all my t's and dot all my i's.
I know I can handle this job. I conquered undergrad, a horrible first job, a slightly less horrible second job, and graduate school with flying colors. I even came out on top in many of those arenas. And I'll conquer this position too. Eventually. But in the now, as I continue to sit through each training session and feel even more overwhelmed with all the things I don't know about this institution, this functional area, and this position, I'm left with the dreaded D word.
But I'm determined to keep moving forward and take each day as it comes. And hopefully, I'll look back on all this in September and feel a sense of accomplishment and pride that I challenged myself to take a position that was far outside my comfort zone and survived my first few months!
Cheers.
I remember once hearing that the human brain can only recount things in a series of 7. So for example, if you ask someone to remember 7 words, numbers, letters, etc., they should be able to do it with no problem. But give them 8 and man, you're asking for it. T-R-O-U-B-L-E. At this point in time (not like I'm counting), I think I'm up to being asked to remember 127 things. I'm not kidding. So needless to say, it's adding up and it's A LOT! And I'm plagued by the desire to want to excel in this position and ensure I don't forget to cross all my t's and dot all my i's.
I know I can handle this job. I conquered undergrad, a horrible first job, a slightly less horrible second job, and graduate school with flying colors. I even came out on top in many of those arenas. And I'll conquer this position too. Eventually. But in the now, as I continue to sit through each training session and feel even more overwhelmed with all the things I don't know about this institution, this functional area, and this position, I'm left with the dreaded D word.
But I'm determined to keep moving forward and take each day as it comes. And hopefully, I'll look back on all this in September and feel a sense of accomplishment and pride that I challenged myself to take a position that was far outside my comfort zone and survived my first few months!
Cheers.
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